The fill that never happened...

So November 16^th I got my first fill. 2 CC for a total of 3. At first I was super restricted… I had to be really careful to chew everything etc. All of the sudden I am loosey goosey. I feel even less restricted now then I was after surgery. Last night I was eating a steak my roommate cooked for dinner… and I was like wait a minute, I just ate a steak with no problem whatsoever. I also find myself hungry all the time. What happened? I want my restriction back. I don’t have another fill for two weeks. I guess its time to learn if I can actually avoid temptation. So far so good.

I had my first final last night… I think I aced it! Woo hoo! One down two to go!

So one more thing. I have been cleared to work out finally! But I am kind of scared that I am going to hurt my port... did anyone feel this way? What kind of exercise did you start out with? Did you start slowly or jump right in?

Happy Monday!

Happy Monday!!!

What a whirlwind weekend! I happy to say that I managed not to gain any weight, however, not so happy that I didn’t loose any weight… but its all good.

Thursday my boyfriend came into town with his family! Was so excited to see him as its been 8 months since I have seen him last… Long Distance relationships suck by the way. We drove to Miami and had dinner with his family all 42 of them. LOL At least it wasn’t that awkward as I met them all last year when we were just friends, so they were happy to see me. Friday however, was the big day where my mother got to meet him. I was so nervous as my mother is a tough and rough New Yorker and tells it like it is. The last time I brought someone home, she didn’t like them, and made sure they knew it. We went to lunch and luckily, she liked him as much as I do… Thank god for small miracles. Then Friday night we went out to see my favorite local band and he got to meet all of my friends. Once again they loved him… so it was a nice stress free fun night. I did however drink a little too much.

Saturday we had breakfast and it was off to Gainesville. The Gators lost… and that was depressing but at least I got to see my friend Liz before she left for the Navy. Sunday was an emotional day as it was time for me to head home and leave my wonderful boyfriend with his family. To make matters worse I hit major traffic. A 4 hour drive took 6.5 and I watched in my rear view mirror as a man on a motorcycle was hit by a huge pick up truck.

I am glad to be home and back on track. I have my first final tomorrow and I haven’t studied for it… and two more next week. It is going to be a long week.

How was your Thanksgiving? What kid of fun did you get in to?

Skinny Santa Weigh In.

Sorry its late...

Start Weight: 275
Last Weight: 254
Current Weight: 254

Big fat loss of zero!!

Back from the holidays... will catch up soon!

Week from Hell...

Sorry I have been missing from Blog land... but I am having a week from hell :(

Friday was work drama, Saturday I found out my aunt had a heart attack and was in the hospital. Luckily, she is ok and has been released from the hospital.

Yesterday I found out my only living grandparent had a massive heart attack and a bowl obstruction. They fixed the bowl obstruction and she is refusing treatment for the heart attack and refusing to eat... which makes me think she is ready to pass on. My uncle said I could try and call her but she is in and out of lucidness so do not be offended if she doesn't know who I am.

My mom also went to the doctor today and got an upper GI or something like that and it turns out she has a herniated esophagus... she is most likely going to need surgery.

Finals start next week... and I am stressed out to the max, so blogging isn't on my to do list at the moment...

BYOC!

It’s Friday and that means it’s time for another installment of BYOC! That’s Bring Your Own Crazy!! We answer 5 questions in an effort to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break! Copy and paste to your own blog if you so desire – and ENJOY!


I’m going to do a Thanksgiving themed BYOC this week (it was Jenny’s idea)!

1. What is your FAVORITE part of Thanksgiving?

Being with Family and friends

2. How many Thanksgiving family events will you attend?

Only one this year... My boyfriend will be in town to see his family. So they do a giant get together with about 30 people. It was amazing last year... so I am hoping that this year will be just as nice!

3. What’s your biggest Thanksgiving tradition?

I dont really have one anymore. My mom used to have this big dinners, but now that its just her and I... we really only do big things on Christmas.

4. Do you Black Friday shop the day after Thanksgiving?

I did once and it was the worst experience ever. So I try and stay away from anywhere shopping on black Friday.

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog world.

Blog world is great. Reading blogs and trying to comment as much as possible.

Real world is good and bad... Work is stressing me the hell out, in fact yesterday another co worker made me feel so bad that I actually cried... that doesnt happen often. Other than that life is good!

Skinny Santa Weigh in, First Fill and Writing Prompt

Start Weight: 275
Previous Weight: 256
Current Weight 254
Loss of 2 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!

Last night I got my first fill!! I was given 2CC yesterday for a total of 3CC. It was way easier then I thought it was going to be, especially since I absolutely hate needles. The funny thing is... I thought my port was higher up then it was. Cause in my upper abdomen it looks like something is sticking out, but they put the band aid by where my scar is... weird. Do you guys know where your port is? Or am I the only crazy person that thought it was somewhere else?

Now onto the writing prompt:

What has been the happiest moment of you life so far? It would have to be when I graduated the first time around. In May of 2007 I graduated with a BA degree double majored in Real Estate and Management and a separate degree in Chemistry. My family was super proud of me... as I was the first one in my family to graduate with a 4 year degree. I paid for college completely on my own, so I felt that I had finally achieved something that I worked so hard for.

Happy Friday!!

10 Things Thursday...and prompt...

1. I am supposed to get my first fill today... fingers crossed that it happens
2. I have support group tonight and I am really looking forward to it
3. I should be able to start working out very very soon, I am super excited about it!
4. This weekend is my day of beauty before the boyfriend comes to town. I am really looking forward to having my hair done and getting a mani and pedi!
5. Finals are coming up and I am freaking out... so much to do, so little time!
6. I am grateful school is almost over... I need a break!
7. My boyfriend is meeting my mom for the first time next week... this should be interesting. 
8. My mom has been super supportive... she even offered to help me with the down payment of my first house. I think she has been invaded by pod people... but I like the results.
9. Work has been super brutal lately... I almost wanted to cry this morning.
10. Christmas is coming up and I am drawing a blank for presents... I hate giving gift cards though.

Today's NaBloPoMo prompt is, "Make a list of everyone you've ever had a crush on in your entire life, then choose one from the list and describe him or her in great detail."

1. Cliff
2. Phil
3. Rob
4. Brian
5. Sam

Hrmmm lets talk about Sam. Sam is a mans man... a total alpha male. We met in College in 2006. What I love about Sam, is he is a no nonsense kind of guy... he tells it like it is, and I am the same way. He is also a complete gentleman, he opens car doors, and regular doors, compliments you and pays for things. He also has the most beautiful hazel eyes I have ever seen. He is a total charmer... he could charm the venom out of a snake. We tested the waters, but a long term relationship would never work out between us as we are too much alike. However, I am thankful that him and I have remained close friends!

Happy Humpday!

Writing prompt:
What is the moment you leave childhood and enter adulthood?

For me it was when I moved out on my own... One week after high school graduation, at the young age of 17 I moved to Orlando to go to college. It only lasted 3 whole short months before I moved my happy ass back to South Florida. But my parents treated me differently because I was out on my own paying my own bills. When I moved back they actually started charging me rent and treating me like an equal. 9 Months later, I moved out again this time to Gainesville! Go Gators, where I actually made it work this time and I was up that way for 4 years, before I moved back to South Florida.

In other news:

Well the weight from this weekend is finally coming off! My boyfriend will be here in 1 week, I am so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am supposed to get my first fill tomorrow, I am hoping they give it to me. I have a pot luck on Friday at work, looks like if I get the fill I will be watching everyone else eat. Normally I would be totally bummed out about that but I honestly don't mind. Yesterday was a test for me. We had cake at work for the owners birthday, and I did not have a piece. Man it looked good, but the brownie looking cake thing looked like I would choke on it if I even tried a piece. I opted to eat my lunch instead. Yay for will power.

Finals are coming up and I am completely stressed out... but for some reason I do better under pressure. So we shall see how that goes. I hope everyone is having a great day!

Tuesday Aggrevation and writing prompt...

Describe a favorite place. Focus on how that place affects your sense of taste, touch, sight, sound, or smell

There is this Japanese gardens in Delray Beach, FL it is called the Morakami. My dad used to take me there when I was a little girl and we would have picnics by the lake.

I love this place, it is so serene, to walk around the gardens, or go to the museum and look at art work. They constantly have things going on there like a sushi stroll, or drum circle. I actually want to get married there one day.

I wish I could go there right now.

So today was the day to register for classes, registration began at 12:01 AM. With limited classes available for Spring semester, i decided I need to wait up and make sure I get the classes I need to graduate. The server went down... I was up till 1 AM trying to register, It wouldn't work. I went to bed and set my alarm for 4 AM. I woke up registered and went back to sleep. Then I get to work this morning and there was an email from my boss telling me that I could not use flex time to take the last class that I need. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR so much for graduating next semester. I am one cranky girl this morning.

One Month Bandiversary...

It just dawned on me that today is my One Month Bandiversary!!

I have officially lost 19 lbs and 7.5 inches off of my body!!! WOO HOOO!

I learned that the band is only as good as the effort you put into it. Which I am totally working on, I manage to be perfect for 5 days and crappy for two, but I can not do that if I want to achieve long term success.

I have learned that Rice is no longer my friend... but I am OK with that.

I am excited about being cleared to work out again! Only one more week to go! I love the way I feel when I work out, one more week and its show time!

I have also learned that I have an amazing network of girls and guys! That help me keep focused, so Thank you!

Meet me on Monday

Blogging is a funny thing...we tell our most intimate thoughts for all to read and yet most of the time I find myself sitting and wondering, "who is this person!?" I know them...but yet I don't know them! I want to know who the person is behind all those words so I thought of a great way for all of us to "meet" each other!

Every Sunday Never Growing Old will post five get to know you questions that you can copy and paste into your own Monday post and we can all learn a little more about each and every one of us!!

Questions:

1. Does your family/friends know about your blog?
2. What is your favorite card game?
3. What do you wear to bed?
4. What is your favorite kind of French Fry?
5. What is your usual bed time?

My Answers:

1.      Does your family/friends know about your blog?
My friends and family know about it, only one friend who is considering WLS actually reads it.

2.     What is your favorite card game?
I love playing cards. Blackjack and Poker are my favorite!

3.     What do you wear to bed?

Anyway from nothing to a cute PJ outfit

4.     What is your favorite kind of French Fry?McDonalds fries are my favorite. However I do not eat them anymore.

5.     What is your usual bed time?

      Midnight is my bedtime... I really need to get to bed sooner.

It's Muuuunday!

Prompt for the day... Have you faced fears and overcome them?

Yes I have... but not very many of them. The fear that I did overcome was my fear of heights... I overcame that by zip lining through Costa Rica, and jumping out of a perfectly good airplane. (will never do that again)

I have a fear of spiders, but that is because I am deathly allergic to them.

I also have a fear of dying alone... Like never being married etc. I am sure that will change one day but for now its still a fear.

So here is my weekend recap, I think my band heard me celebrate that I was down 20lbs...for after that post I was able to eat whatever I wanted to, and I did... The scale showed up 2.5 lbs this morning... Bad Jessica... Time to be perfect the rest of the week. My goal for next weekend is to be accountable cause this yo yo crap is what got me into this mess in the first place.

I also finished my paper in a record time of 4 hours... God that scares me, since I did the research at the same time. God I really hope the paper doesn't suck!!

I have a busy month ahead of me... Lots of deadlines at work, my boyfriend will be here in 9 days, Thanksgiving and finals... I can not wait until December, when I can finally just sit back relax and enjoy myself.

I took my roommates boyfriend to the airport this morning...Getting up at 5 am makes me a tired cranky girl today :(

Lazy Sunday!!

Even my cat Nala is being lazy... This is what I want to do today. I am totally kicking myself in the booty for waiting to write my paper at the last minute. Shame on me. With company in town I was really bad with my food choices. I have been good today, but I just need to kick it in to high gear and stop eating whatever I want all weekend. I really hope that my doctor gives me a fill on Thursday like he is supposed to. Alright time to stop slacking and start writing a paper on Bankruptcy fruad.. the highlight of my day.

Happy Saturday!!

It is a beautiful day in South Florida... I am kind of bummed out that I waited to the last minute to write a research paper. I would much rather be outside playing in the Sun.

So I have an NSV last night... I went out with my roomate and her boyfriend to the Outback and where I would normally eat a whole loaf of bread, a half of bloomin onion and an entire meal. I had one peice of bread, and half of a Pork Tenderloin meal...and one glass of wine. And I actually acocunted for the calories!

WOOO HOOOOOO!

Also I peeked on the scale this morning and I finally hit 20 lbs lost!!

Happy Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TGIF! Thank god it is finally Friday. I have had a week from hell and really glad its over!

On a plus note I had my highest weekly weight loss so far this week. Except of course the week I was on liquids. So I am really excited that I lost weight this week, when normally when things get rough I turn to food. My roommate’s boyfriend is in town, he also happens to be one of my best male friends, so this weekend should be exciting. Unfourtnately I also have a research paper to write so I am hoping I can knock that out in less than a day.

Now on to today’s prompt:

Its 11/11/11 make three wishes.

1. I hope that my boss agrees to let me take a day class, so I can graduate next semester and not have to worry about it.
2. I hope to pass the CPA test the first time around. I worked hard for this, and I am ready to start the next chapter.
3. I hope that my boyfriend will move here by March… We are talking about it but its not 100% yet.

Hope everyone has a fantastic day!

Also happy Veterans day to all the men and woman that served our country!

Weigh in and Skinny Santa Challenge First Post

Start Weight 275
Previous Weight 258.5
Current Weight 256
Loss of 2.5 lbs... WOO HOOO! This is my biggest loss since stopping liquids!!!!!!!!!!

I am really excited for the Skinny Santa Challenge! I need something to kick my booty in gear.

Places I love to Shop are...

1. Lane Bryant
2. Macys
3. Target
4. Walmart
5. I am really hard to shop for so Visa works too!

Thursday Ramblings!

I liked Read’s prompts better than the one I was going to write about today! So here we go!

Which quality best describes your life--exciting, organized, dull--and why?  All of the above…My life is exciting, when I have friends and family in town or when I decide to treat myself to a night out on the town. Its Organized because that is how I have to be, especially when it comes to work and school. Just don’t look at my car… It looks like I live in there. Dull because sometimes all I do is work and go to school, but I know that its going to get me to where I need and want to be.

Why is it important to be honest?   My motto has always been the truth hurts, but it’s the truth. I would rather you tell me the truth then be lied to any day of the week.
What is something you do well?   I do accounting well.

What would happen if there were no television? Why would this be good? bad?  Well I love TV, but it would be nice to have no television for a little while. There are a ton of books that I want to read.
What do you think the world needs now?  Peace and Love!

Is it friday yet?

This week has been brutal...

I want to go to sleep and wake up on Friday!

That is really all I have to say today!

Tuesday...NaBloPoMo Writing Prompt

So the prompt for the day for NaBloPoMo... Has anything traumatic ever happened to you?

Yes it has on several occasions...

1. I went flying head first into the corner of a television when I was about 8 years old. Thanks to my wonderful cousin tripping me. I ended up with 300 + stitches and a nasty scar on my forehead.

2. In 2005, my father and I were fighting... The last thing I said to him was Go F**K yourself... I then left the house and went to blockbuster to return a movie and go to the bank... While waiting for traffic to clear to turn into the bank I had this strange feeling come over me, I decided to go home instead. When I returned home, there were 3 cop cars, a firetruck, and an ambulance, covering the span of 3 houses. I tried to walk in my front door, where the cops proceeded to tell me to use the garage door. When I walked into the house I saw the paddles being used to resuscitate my father. I learned that while I was at blockbuster, he had a heart attack while swimming and unfortunately he passed away that night. The moral of the story, never walk away when you are mad. You need to work it out, for you never know if nasty words will be the last thing you say to someone.


On a happier note I received two pairs of shorts from Robyn last night.. I absolutely loved them and they fit great.

Meet me on Monday!

Blogging is a funny thing...we tell our most intimate thoughts for all to read and yet most of the time I find myself sitting and wondering, "who is this person!?" I know them...but yet I don't know them! I want to know who the person is behind all those words so I thought of a great way for all of us to "meet" each other!

Every Sunday Never Growing Old will post five get to know you questions that you can copy and paste into your own Monday post and we can all learn a little more about each and every one of us!!

Questions:

1. Are you excited for the holidays or are you dreading them?
2. Do you hit the snooze button or get right up?
3. Do you still have your tonsils?
4. What was the last piece of candy that you ate?
5. Do you shop at thrift stores?

My Answers:

1. No I am not looking forward to the holidays, this year I will be doing last minute shopping and I dread the mall during that time.
2. I hit the snooze button at least 3 times before I actually roll out of bed. I really need to start going to bed earlier, maybe then I wont be such a witch in the morning.
3. I sure do!
4. I had a Kit Kat snack size candy on Thursday I believe.
5. I have tried to but I never find anything cute in my size... I have found a lot of nice books though.

Weekend Recap...

So Friday night I went out with an old friend... We went out to dinner and then went to Downtown Lake Worth for some drinks... What I don't understand is I used to have a crush on said friend.. When I am single the boy is never interested. When I am not single he is always interested. I am really over the head games that he plays with me.

Yesterday I went to the Circus with my roommate and her son... it was a lot of fun! I have not been since I was a child. Even though it was super cheesy, it was really nice to see him all excited about it. I can not wait until I am a mother one day!

Tonight I went to the Florida Panther Hockey game. It was a lot of fun... I have not gone in a while. The first period we were up 3-0 and I thought we had the game on lock down, but in triple OT the Lightening won 4-3.

I ate like total crap all weekend... I am not very happy with myself, but time to hit the reset button and start the week off right.

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

My First PB

22 days since surgery and I PB'd, I was hoping this would never happen to me, but it did. Turkey Burger and I are no longer friends. That was pretty gross.

Went to the circus today with my nephew. It was super cheesy but it was nice to see him have a good time!

Hope everyone is having a good weekend!

BYOC!!

Let’s get to what we came here for! BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy. A couple questions we answer to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break. Copy and paste to your own blog if you wish! Enjoy!

Let’s do another themed BYOC…..this one will be called “What’s In/On Your….?”
1. What’s on your desk between your monitor and keyboard? (if it’s a laptop – what’s on your desk in general)

Post it Notes, and a 32 oz water bottle, 10key calculator. That’s bout it… My desk is pretty clean at work.
2. What’s on your mind right at this moment?

It is a co worker’s last day at work and we are supposed to go to a Cuban restaurant for lunch. I am a tad freaked out cause I am not on a full diet yet, and I don’t want to eat rice in public in case I get stuck… LOL and I don’t like beans. But I am kind of fond of my perfectly portioned out meal that I brought to work with me… ACK! Anxiety over lunch… Who am I?
3. What’s in or on your nightstand on your side of the bed?

Just the remote and a bottle of water.
4. What’s on YOUR Christmas wish list (let’s assume you’d get what was on it)?

Since I already got one of my major Christmas/bday gifts already (The Surgery) I am not expecting much nor do I really want anything… so I have not thought about this. Will get back to you on this one.
5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.

Real life has been up and down. School has me totally frustrated as you already know. However, I did manage to get another 100 on my second auditing test!! Woo hooo!

Blog life has been great, I have been reading every post and commenting as much as I can. I love that I have found some knew people!

Life in general is just good!

NABLOPOMO

So if you haven't heard, its National Blog Post Month... The challenge is to blog every day of the month.

Thanks to Ronnie and Read, I have decided to do some research and I found a cool site that gives you prompts. I actually like the questions so I am going to answer them! I encourage you to do the same!! (Thanks Ronnie)

Since I am a little late to the party, I am going to answer all of the questions!

1. What is your favorite part about writing? I just like to get out whats on my mind... I am not the best writer, but it makes me feel better if something is bothering me.
2. If you knew that whatever you ate would be your last meal what would you want it to be? I love Asian food, so I am guessing it would have to be some sort of Chinese or Thai food.
3. Can you listen to music and write? What song did you hear to day? I listen to music all day, especially when I am at work, which involves math and writing. Today I have heard everything from trapt to flyleaf!
4. When you are writing do you prefer to use a pen or computer? I have always preferred to use a computer. That is how i write letters, blogs, poetry... its much easier to erase that way.

Weigh in Friday!!

Start Weight 275.
Current Weight 258.5
Loss for Week -1.5
Total Loss 16.5

Yay the scale finally moved in the right direction!

Happy Friday!!!

10 things Thursday!

1. I am not feeling well, but I am out of sick time so I have to tough it out at work… BAH HUMBUG!
2. I emailed the school of accounting trying to get another section offered next semester, I had other people email them as well. I really hope this works. I am going to graduate next semester if it kills me, even if I have to take a class at another damn school.
3. Saturday I start a full diet, I am so excited. I have a million and one recipes that I am dying to try. I also hope that since I will be eating more consistently the scale will finally start to move!
4. My x boyfriend is going to be in FL for two months during January and February and wants to see me…. I haven’t decided if this is a bad idea or not. I have not seen him since we broke up.
5. I am supposed to get my first fill in two weeks I really hope they give me one.
6. My mom is the best, but she drives me insane. She had the lap band 4 years ago, and is constantly telling me what to do. She thinks 1200 calories is too high and I should eat way less… meanwhile the scale didn’t move an inch when I was eating less than that. Why wont she understand that our journeys are not the same, nor will they ever.
7. My boyfriend will be here in three weeks!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can not wait to see him, I still don’t understand why I got involved in yet another long distance relationship… thank god he is moving back to fla in a few months.
8. I have a research paper to write and I am not looking forward to it. I would rather get a root canal. Anyone want to write it for me? Its on Bankruptcy fraud… Oh what fun!
9. I can not wait to work out again! For now I am just going to walk.
10. Hope everyone has a happy Thursday! Thank god tomorrow is Friday!

Holy Restriction Batman...

Wow so I was eating breakfast this morning, the same thing I eat almost every day and I almost choked. Funny what a little TOM can do to you. Crap, even getting water isn't that easy. I don't like this feeling... I am hoping that it goes away... ASAP!

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Not a happy camper

So I am all excited because I have three classes left and I was going to graduate in May of next year! Then I was going to take a month off and start my CPA review class.. I had this all mapped out and by February of 2013 I was going to be a licensed CPA.

So the spring schedule came out since its time to register for classes in two weeks and low and behold 2 of the 3 classes I need are being offered at the same time. WTF?! I have two options… 1 take a day class and miss a half a day of work, my boss didn’t like that too much as it also happens to be our busiest season, or wait to take the class in the summer. So I looked at last years summer schedule, and the class was only offered on a Tuesday last year which happens to be the same time as my CPA review class…. Nothing is going right since FAU made massive budget cuts.

My hardest class is only offered online now, and the other one is a web lecture. I don’t like either one of those. BLAH this sucks!

On a happier note, the scale is finally moving in the right direction. I think its odd that the scale showed a low number after a day where I have eaten the most calories since surgery… go figure!