Vices...

So last night at support group we were talking about addiction. We had a guy that shared his story about how he used to be addicted to drugs and alcohol and how it wasn’t until his life spiraled out of control and he lived under a bridge for 6 months did he decide to get help. He has been sober for 15 years and he recently had gastric by pass surgery and he is doing really well. He was saying that he lives one day at a time even when it comes to using his tool to loose weight.

He mentioned and the Doc agreed with him, that 20 % of bariatric patients change the addiction of food for another addiction.  Whether it is drugs, alcohol, shopping, exercise etc.

He mentioned some people go full tilt it one direction or the other but they don’t have a happy medium.

So my question is did you trade one vice for another? Do you find yourself with a new addiction?

After listening to this last night, I realized that my alcohol consumption has increased and it is definitely something I need to keep an eye on.

How do you know when you are full?

So how do you know when you are full? They say that there are signals... but I have never experienced that.

I measure out my food, and only eat whats on my plate. But I have never had a full signal...

What is your signal?

Weigh in Day!

Start Weight 275
Previous weight 244
Current weight 241.5
Loss of 2.5

Total loss of 33.5 lbs :)

Happy Friday!

10 Things Thursday!

1. It is really hard to get back into the swing of things after a cruise...I have no motivation this week.
2. Tonight is my support group meeting, and I am actually looking forward to it.
3. Tonight I am going to work out, even if it kills me its a necessary evil.
4. My classes are super boring this semester. It is taking all of my energy to actually focus.
5. My roommates boyfriend moves in less than 2 weeks, I am really nervous about that.
6. My boyfriend moves in 6 weeks... I am even more nervous about that.
7. I hope that I have no problems with my fill yesterday... but I wont know for sure until I get off of Liquids on Friday.
8. Work is really slow this week, but starting next week I am going to be slammed for the next two months. I am not looking forward to it.
9. I wish my job would give us our W-2's already I would really like to file my taxes already.
10. Happy Thursday my lovelies!

Exercise time...

So since surgery in October, I have totally been slacking in the exercise department...I have decided that I have no more excuses and I plan on hitting up the gym after support group tonight.

I was wondering though... should I just do Cardio for like a month to get back into the swing of things or should I start lifting weights right away too?

Any suggestions? It has been a very long time since I have done anything like that.

3rd Successful fill...

Well I ended up getting my third fill. I got another CC for a total of 5 CC in my 10 CC lap band.

I was a little scared for the doctor to go that aggressive since the last time I was at 5CC I could not eat for a week.

But so far so good.

So we shall see!

Fill day

Today I have an appointment for my 3rd fill... I have to admit that I am a tad bit on the nervous side since last time I was above 4CC I couldnt eat a thing.

So I am hoping that my fill will be done with no complications this time!

Hope everyone is having a good day :)

Cruise Pics!!

I am back and tired as ever...work cruise = lots of drinking and not enough sleep. The wonderful people I work with are much younger then I am, and Party way harder than I do... so needless to say I could not keep up the whole time. But I did have a blast and cant wait to do it next year!!

 Time for the sail away party!

 Dinner on the first night with my friend and two of my co-workers!

 Laying in the sun in Key West... recovering from Day 1!

 Beach time in Cozumel with my friend Carrie!

 Carrie with the DJ from the Cruise in Cozumel...

 1/3 of our Crazy Group... there was 27 of us total!

 Enjoying our last night on the cruise!

 Beach time in Mexico!

 Goofing off! 

 Being taught how to dance!

My coworkers never follow directions

Just hanging out in Mexico

Back from Mexico!!

Honey, I am home!! and I am ready to pass out at my desk...

Free company cruise = amazing, having to get up at 630 am to get off the boat and to work by 830 am = no bueno.

I didn't sleep very well last night... I just hope I do not end up with keyboard impressions on my forehead today :( as I am going on 3 hours of crappy sleep.

Will post pictures soon!

Hump Day!!

So I am all packed and ready for my Cruise tomorrow.... The half day at work is going to be killer... I am sure no one will be productive whatsoever.

It literally looks as if I am moving to Mexico instead of going on a short 4 day cruise... OOOPSIE!! But at least I will be prepared. A girl can never have too many clothes or accessories.

I so a new low on the scale yesterday morning... I really hope it sticks as I am moving up my weigh in up a day since I will be floating on a boat somewhere.

I am hoping I can keep my portions and calories in check too.... This is the first time I will be away from my home cooked meals for an extended period of time and I am a little bit nervous!!!

Ok time for class, and then finish packing and off to  Mexico I go... catch you guys next week!!

3 Month Bandiversary!!

Wow... time is flying. I just happened to look at the date and realize that today is my 3 month anniversary with the lap band!

When I started this journey, it was for my health, and for the ability to one day have a family... What I didn't realize is that I would gain all of you in the process!! I have met and talked to so many wonderful people, and I am so grateful for it!

So at the 3 month mark, I am down 31lbs and 18.5 total body inches.

After my cruise I am totally going to kick it in to high gear... eating right every day instead of just during the week, gonna quit with the girls nights out and drinking, for it is not helping my waste line and focus on exercising more. I convinced my best friend to go to the gym with me since I hate going alone. My roommate is also buying a piece of work out equipment for the house. So I am hoping the next 3 months I will have even greater success.

On a side note... When I weighed 275 lbs I had no problem finding clothes that fit... now that I am 244 I cant seem to find anything if my life depended on it. Everything I find is either way to big or way to small... Thank god for Cat, Christy and Stephanie or I would be going to Mexico naked.

Hope everyone has an awesome Saturday! I am off to a bridal shower for my Lesbian friends... this should be interesting as they are a bunch of wild girls.

Weigh in

Start Weight 275
Previous Weight 245
Current Weight 244
Loss of 1 lb

Total loss of 31!

BYOC!

Our Darling Draz has posted our Friday fun in the form of BYOC!

It’s Friiiiidddaayyy! That means it’s time for BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy! A little ditty you can participate in on Fridays to get to know your fellow blogger better and to give your blogging brain a break.

Copy and paste to your own blog and ENJOY!! Special thanks goes out to my fellow Jedi Kittens – Linda and Stef – for supplying me with every single question this week! No theme today – just massively random!

 1. Do you have a favorite traditional “birthday meal”? If yes – what is it and what is the meaning behind it?Not really... we usually go out somewhere to eat but it changes constantly. The year before last we went to Sushi Masa and had sushi/Thai and this year we went to Bennihana's which is a Japanese steak house... actually come to think of it I am starting to see a theme... LOL

2. If you’ve lost weight, has your style changed since you lost weight? Or what's your dream purchase when you do lose weight/hit goal?
I am starting to wear more form fitting things instead of looking frumpy all of the time. When I reach goal I would like to either get my belly button pierced or a tattoo or something.

 3. Pick one question of the following two to answer: Who is your favorite Muppet and why? Or who is your favorite Smurf and why?
Miss Piggy or Kermit... they are just too cute!

 4. When you buy a lotion or after bath spray or body spray or candle (not perfume) – what’s the “flavor” you always find yourself loving the most?
Usually Pear stuff for body spray from Victoria  Secret.

 5. Repeat question. Summarize your week in real life and in blogland.
Real life... hrmmm it sucks. I have been feeling really down lately and not sure why... been trying to figure it out all week. Work is brutal as usual and  School just started up... I am just not at the top of my game at the moment.


Blog land totally rocks! Thanks to Christy, Cat, and Stephanie I am all set for my cruise and I now have more shorts then I know what to do with... LOL it totally felt like Christmas coming home to big boxes to open up!! Thank you again ladies :)

10 Things Thursday!

1. I love my fellow Boobs!! Thank you to Cat and Christy, for sending me some awesome clothes for my cruise!! Would be going naked with out you!!
2. 1 week till Mexico!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This should be interesting with my 15 co workers and their guests... a total of 30 of us LOL
3. School started yesterday, and I am so not ready for it...
4. I can not wait to get my hair done on Saturday, at 31 my hair seems to be growing in white... I refuse to be silver by 40.
5. My boyfriend moves in...in 6 weeks... I think I am starting to panic now.
6. Ronnie and I talk way too much about boys... hahaha but its fun!!
7. I really need to get my ass in gear... I have lost the same 2 lbs for the past month.
8. I love my mom, but sometimes she drives me insane with all the phone calls telling me the same thing she told me earlier.
9. Tool is coming to town and I really want to go to that concert.
10. Thank god tomorrow is Friday!!!

First day of the new semester...

Its the first day of class... and I can already tell it is going to be a very long and brutal semester... Remind me why I went back to school for another degree again?

3 classes left to graduate, only taking 2 this semester thanks to good ol budget cuts at FAU. One of my classes are online ( they actually charge more for that) and the other class is via teleweb conference... It was so hard understanding the teacher as we can only hear the chatter of the other students in the live class room.

I really can not wait for vacation next week... Mexico here I come... You are long overdue.

Blah...

Why is it then when I have had a shitty day all I want to do is eat?

It is taking every once of my being to not stuff my face with a shit load of ice cream...

One glass of wine is all I am allowed...

Woo hooo I got Tagged... I wonder if you did too? Check it out!

I am sitting home bored out of my mind and I find out I was tagged by Lucy! Thanks!

The Rules:1. Post these rules.
2. You must post 11 random things yourself.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post.
4. Create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.
5. Go to their blog and tell them that you've tagged them.
6. No stuff in the tagging section about ‘you are tagged if you are reading this.’ Blah blah blah, you legiti­mately have to tag 11 peeps!
 
11 Random things about me:
 

1.  I am a very competitive person but I sometimes hate to admit it... I went bowling last night and I lost all three games... and I was kind of pouting about it.
2. I love to read. Although since I have been back in school I have had the time. I can not wait to get back into it.
3. I collect butterflies and fairys.
4. I have a small but amazing circle of friends that I have known for 10 or more years.
5. I play with my hair when I am nervous.
6. I miss my father greatly... He passed away in 2005. The holidays are hard with out him but I make sure I say goodnight everynight!
7. I have 5 tattoos
8. I love movies... but I hate horror movies.
9. I love to cook! I learned how to cook for a guy... LOL
10. I am working on getting my CPA license.
11. I cant wait for BOOBS! I have never been to Chicago.

Lucy's questions:
1. How many hours of sleep do you get a night? Entirely not enough...Usually between 5-7
2. What is your most embarrassing moment? When I fell down a flight of stairs in high school. I was mortified.
3. Beach or Mountain? Can I have both please? I like them equally as much. That is why I loved Costa Rica so much, I had the best of both worlds.
4. Can’t miss show? Grey's or Private Practice. I really like Vampire Diaries too!
5. Do you do your own taxes? I sure do, and everyone in my family... as well as corporations. I am an accountant its what I do. LOL
6. Best vacation? Would have to be Costa Rica
7. Flats or heels? Flats please, or wedges
8. Favorite number? 13
9. Life after death? I do believe in recarnation
10. Favorite Magazine? In touch
11. Do you read in the bathroom? Sometimes but not often.

My Questions:

1. Do you have any tattoos? If so what are they of?
2. What is the most played song on your ipod?
3. What is your favorite form of exercise?
4. If you could learn to do anything? What would it be?
5. If you won the lotterty, what would be the first thing you would do?
6. What is the first thing you notice about someone?
7. Describe yourself in three words
8. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would it be?
9. What is your biggest fear?
10. If you could have three wishes, what would you wish for?
11. Can you keep a secret?

People I Tag:

1. Ronnie
2. Cat
3. Lap Band Gal
4. Stephanie M.
5. Speck
6. Mari
7. Drazil
8. Beth Ann
9. JIm
10. Rachel
11. Chloe

In need of the sister hood

So I am going on a cruise in 12 days and I really dont want to spend money on clothes that are not going to fit for very long so I was wondering if anyone had cruise clothes (Like T Shirts, Shorts, etc) that are in size 18/20 in the bottom and 14/16 in the top that they are wanting to get rid of. Please let me know!

Weigh in!

Start Weight: 275
Previous Weight 247
Current Weight 245
Loss of 2 lbs
Total Loss of 30!

Woo hoo! Finally back on track!

10 Things Thursday!

1. I find it funny how when you aren't looking for a job, somehow head hunters find you and they try to entice you with an amazing offer.
2. I am really thinking about said offer, but it will involve a 55 mile commute each way for the next 5 months. Then my lease is up and I can move closer.
3. I really need to get my ass in the gym... I have been slacking.
4. I can not understand for the life of me why it is so cold in Florida. I do not have the clothes for this kind of weather. The other day it was colder in Florida then it was in Oregon. That is just wrong in my opinion.
5. I am not looking forward to school starting next week, 3 classes to go and I am done.
6. I find it funny that I talk to Ronnie, who I have never met before more than I talk to my roommate... or any of my best friends... I love her to death, I wish she lived closer.
7. Speaking of never meeting Ronnie, I can not wait to BOOBS... come on September!
8. Why are guys so confusing? A guy that I have always liked, likes to make advances at me when I am in a relationship but when I am single... he wants nothing to do with me. I just don't get it.
9. The next quarter is going to be a doosey... The new assignments came out at work. and I almost died. Looks like I am going to be working late all quarter. Got to love tax season. Being an accountant is fun.... NOT!
10. I am excited that my shows are returning tonight! You will find me snuggled up in my blanket watching Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice!

31st Bday Pics!

Well it has always been fun celebrating my birthday while bringing in the new year. This year I turned 31! Normally I do not have a party on my actually birthday, but with school starting back up and a cruise to Mexico coming up, I decided what the hell and had a small get together with a few close friends. We started at Bennihanna's which is a hibachi place that I have never been to, and OMG was it amazing. Then we headed to downtown Delray to hear a friends band play... all in all it was awesome! I couldn't have asked for a better birthday. Especially since a friend of mine was in town, we have literally know each other since the day I was born, and it was really nice to spend time with her on my birthday. The only thing missing was my amazing boyfriend :( I can not wait till he moves to Florida!!

Hell did officially freeze over since I wore a dress and heels for the first time in I can not even tell you how long.

The start of the evening

Two of my best friends!

My friend I have known my entire life!